The Sea of Lies...

BismiAllahi AlRahman AlRaheem,

As I was reading Surat Isra2, I came upon some verses that really fit into the shoes that i'm standing in, the road that i'm taking, and the questions that I'm answering:

"Your Lord is He Who drives the ship for you through the sea,

in order that you may seek of His Bounty.

Truly! He is Ever Most Merciful towards you.

And when harm touches you upon the sea,

those that you call upon vanish from you except Him (Allâh Alone).
But when He brings you safe to land,
you turn away (from Him).
And man is ever ungrateful[].
Do you then feel secure that He will not
cause a side of the land to swallow you up,
or that He will not send against you a violent sand-storm?

Then, you shall find no Wakîl

(guardian— one to guard you from the

torment).

Or do you feel secure that He

will not send you back a second time to sea

and send against you a hurricane of wind

and drown you because of your disbelief?

Then you will not find any avenger therein against Us."

65-69

Its funny, cause you can take these few ayats literally, or decompose them to mean something in your life...especially reading it in arabic.

You are on the ship on the wild sea, as in Fitnah. Allah guides the ship, as in DESTINY. The sea becomes so wild and thundering, Fitnah arise within the waves and so violently it tries to take over your ship, your life. And who will you find to help you...you in the middle of no where, in the middle of darkeness. Your balance is gone and your left tembling from edge to edge, holding on to anything in front of you. At times, you swallow the water from the sea and you think its over...Who will help you?

You realize the eyes are looking up on the sky, looking so desperately, and the heart is screaming Allah, the only one that will hear, the only one that will respond, the only one there to hear your inner voice. Allah will respond to the desperate call. That very second the waves of the seas calm and get beautified. The sun rises from its chest, and the birds flying atop making a beautiful dance. Everything ever so peacefull, by Allah's will. Then what?

"Ok so that's over with"... you return to the same state you started from before you set foot on the ship. you become ever so ungratful. So now that you passed this wild Sea storm, are you secure that something greater will not occur? to test you once more so you will realize WHO IS YOUR LORD? or are you secure that the same won't happen, but this time, HE WILL NOT RESPONDE to your desperation and despair. This time, he will let you drown?

wow. That right there....HIT HOME! I must get away from what is drowning me. Alhamdoulillah, today was the first day sticking to my resolutions of my previous post...and..
I FEEL GOOD! taratarara....I KNOW THAT I WOULD NOW! I FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEL GOOODDDDDDD! ....SO GOOD...TATA...SO GOOD....! ALHAMDOULILLAH...

see ya suckers!

ok no seriously. ALHAMDOULILLAH!