Subhana-Allah

AlhamdouliAllah

wa

Allahu Akbar

Contemplation: worried heart

I am bordering every passion to withstand this pressure in my chest.
If it can only be read from the thin lines in my eyes,
Before I situate them and befriend the ground.

The voice waiting to be let out is imprisoned behind uncertainty.
Swallowed every tear drop to not merge and mirror my reflection,
Wiped away every worry from my face…I am standing still.

For now I remain, a serene air flowing around an aspiration;
A candle shining its light; illuminating the path to thy heart. ..

The Struggle for Taqwa

Bismi Allahi Al-Rahmani Al-Raheem

It was reported that `Umar bin Al-Khattab asked Ubayy bin Ka`b about Taqwa:

Ubayy said, "Have you ever walked on a path that has thorns on it''
`Umar said, "Yes.''
Ubayy said, "What did you do then''
He said, "I rolled up my sleeves and struggled.''
Ubayy said, "That is Taqwa.''

[Tafsir Ibn Kathir]

Taqwa: Those who have faith in the unseen; pray and spend on charity; believe in the books, and fear the Day of Doom. [described in Baqarah 2:2-5]

Quran within the Heart

It is declared that the true hafidh is he who takes his Quran as his Companion: One who truly acts upon it and interacts with it, yasir qadi had said today in his uulum el-quran class.

Quran is the heart of spirituality
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Uthuman ibn 3affan said that Mohammed (SAW) said:

"Kheirakum man ta3allama el-Quran wa 3alamah"

"the best of you are the once who learned the quran and taught it"

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Jubayr reported that the Prophet(SAW) said:

"Rejoice! for verily, this Quran- one part of it is in the hands of Allah,
and the other part is in your hands.
Therefore hold on to it, for you will never be destroyed,
nor will you ever go astray after it!" [musnad Ahmed]
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Imam Ahmad said that Abu Nu`aym narrated to them that Bishr bin Muhajir said that `Abdullah bin Buraydah narrated to him from his father :I was sitting with the Prophet and I heard him say :

"Learn Surat Al-Baqarah, because in learning it there is blessing, in ignoring it there is sorrow, and the sorceresses cannot memorize it."

He kept silent for a while and then said:

"Learn Surat Al-Baqarah and Al `Imran because they are two lights and they shade their people on the Day of Resurrection, just as two clouds, two spaces of shade or two lines of (flying) birds. The Qur'an will meet its companion in the shape of a pale-faced man on the Day of Resurrection when his grave is opened. The Qur'an will ask him, 'Do you know me' The man will say, 'I do not know you.' The Qur'an will say, 'I am your companion, the Qur'an, which has brought you thirst during the heat and made you stay up during the night. Every merchant has his certain trade. But, this Day, you are behind all types of trade.' Kingship will then be given to him in his right hand, eternal life in his left hand and the crown of grace will be placed on his head. His parents will also be granted two garments that the people of this life could never afford. They will say, 'Why were we granted these garments' It will be said, 'Because your son was carrying the Qur'an.' It will be said (to the reader of the Qur'an), 'Read and ascend through the levels of Paradise.' He will go on ascending as long as he recites, whether reciting slowly or quickly.''

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Inspite of the HUGE break (ramadan, busy with refugees, sisters weddings) that I took, I just resumed in memorizing the quran, Alhamdoulillah. I now am following a strictER schedule then before. Although I resumed with memorizing 1/4 of Hizb each day, today's class has inspired me to do otherwise:
Memorize 10 versus with translation and application [Tafsir by Ibn Kathir]

The point of memorizing is to instore the words of god within my heart, but with that, comes the understanding of such words, and applying them right away. Until I do so, then I can move on to the next 10 versus.
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May Allah make it easier for me and everyone that's stepping in the same footsteps inshaAllah.
May this journey only be guided by Allah, and may this be the best guide for me wa kulla muslimat wal muslimeen. Ameen.
[day to day journey memo: http://nusaiba-ab-quran.blogspot.com/]

Contemplation: Re-Birth

Constrained are my words when tears provided the means to open my heart.
I escaped through a meditation.
I have, indeed, reached the realization to a purpose….I have a purpose.
I must remain bounded within the road to salvation.
I must free my heart and secure my mind.
I must embrace fully.
I must surrender my body and soul.
I must die: Distill my soul to a new essence, and return in the same body.

I have embarked on a journey to seek, to know, to liberate the truth.
The faith that resides in my heart has locked its doors.
It is to congregate the disease within to be dissolve,
and cultivate the seeds of love and fear to equally pursue my desire:
Journey through serenity, worship my Lord.
But I must be free...