Purification of The Heart... Pt. 2

BismiAllahi AlRahman AlRaheem

Purification of the Heart

By: AbdulBary Yahya

The heart is the nucleus of the soul and body. Therefore, If it is sound, the soul and body follows. If it is wicked, so it will the soul and body.

The heart of the soul could only enter paradise in its pure state. During the lifetime of the heart, it will be stained by diseases and purified by good action, or by trials from Allah. When a Muslim dies and if the heart is still stained, then it will only be purified by the Al-Mighty’s forgiveness, or Punishment of the grave and hellfire according to his impurities.

By committing sins, a black spot is placed on the heart and persistency degrades the hearts until it covers the whole heart, then there will be no turning back only by his return to Allah and by the Grace of Allah shall it be cleaned, inshaAllah.

3 kinds of hearts:

Healthy Heart: No sickness in it, and it will be saved in the Day of Judgment. It believe in Allah SWT and His Rasoul. Does not worry only what pleases Allah.

Dead Heart: Those who don't believe and reject Allah SWT. It is sealed by Allah SWT by their kufr (rejection of the heart). It is hardened as a rock.

Sick Heart: Following the desires and the doubts. He shows signs of both the flipped heart and the sick: He has iman, but also shows signs of hypocracy. He knows the truth but still, he sees it but he becomes blind.


Diseases of the Heart:

*Riya2-Showing Off*Hasad-Jealousy
*Shaitan-Whispers of the heart: especially during prayer, makes you doubt yourself and your intention

II. The two wings of the believer: Hope and Fear

Mohammed SAW tolled a person that he will be amongst the people who will enter paradise. Another person over heard and made it his goal to spend a night with this person and learn what he does that so shall make him enter the heavens. After night stays, he found that this person prostrates like he does, fasts like he does, does good deeds like he does. “So what do you do that you earned a place in paradise while still in this dunya” the curious man asked.

“Before I go to sleep, I have no animosity against anyone, I forgive everyone.” The promised one answered.

Purify your hearts every single night before you go to sleep.

In the Quran, every mention of fear is followed by an aya of hope. Those two parts are mentioned simultaneously because one should not have one and not have the other. Thus, these two parts are the wings of the believer, and the equality of each is the goal of the believer.

Good deeds alone will not promise you paradise. The Muslim only enters paradise by the mercy of Allah SWT. Having both hope and fear stabilizes the mu2min in that the Hope will make u commit good deeds, and Fear will prevent you from doing bad deeds.


Khawf: fear.
Raja: Hope.

The heart, when it flies to Allah, is like a bird. The head is the love for Allah, and Khawf and hope are the two wings. If the head and the two wings are good, it will fly without any problem
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The people that will return to their lords easy and comforted only with a soft heart [fast, prays, give sadaqa and are afraid that their deeds are not accepted]. Moreover, Allah SWT accept good deeds only from the Muttaqeen [people that have taqwa]


Side Note: A person who really fears, he will get up and pray at night. Tahajjud is the mark of the believer {Mu2min}.

III. Loving the Prophet SAW
Allah SWT sent Mohammed SAW as a prophet, and the love of the prophet is a obligatory upon us. “None of you will believe until I become more beloved to him than his father or son” Mohammed SAW said.

If one loves anything other than Allah, then he is setting himself for hell fire. Why should be love Mohammed SAW? Because Allah gave us someone in a human state that we look unto, act like and seek knowledge from.

If you want to love someone, you really want to know everything about them. If you want to learn about Mohammed SAW, learn about him and learn his way.
“If you indeed love Allah SWT, than follow me” –Mohammed SAW

3 things makes you taste the Sweetness of the Iman
1. Loves Allah and his Rasoul SAW more than anything else
2. Loves another human being for the Sake of Allah SWT.
3. He dislikes returning to Kufr, just like he dislikes for Allah SWT to throw him in the hellfire.

IV. Actions of the Heart
Repentence {Tawba}
The prophet sAw made istikhfar over 70 or 100 times a day.

Everyone makes mistakes and sins, but those that repent are the best of sinners. Make Istikhfar for your lord than make tawbah to him.

Istikhfar is what you do with your tongue to the Lord
Tawbah includes istikhfar and also includes actions with the body to change.

People delay the Tawbah so much that it might be too late. It is delayed for the purposes of time and Dunya, and because the nature of men in that it always wants more and never satisfied. So if you wait until you reach a certain position to make a Tawbah, you will never be satisfied with the future position and you keep delaying it, again, until death.

Delay is from the Shaitan, for he starts in baby steps, s.a. delaying a prayer, delaying to pay for zakat, etc.

The day of judgement will not come until a fitnah will enter in every house. Some scholars say that this Fitnah is a TV. Most loved place in the sigh of Allah is the Masjid, and the worst is the Market. So you are bringing the worst beloved thing to Allah into our houses.

The sins are not felt anymore, as Mohammed SAW said this is the sign of Day of Judgement. When sins are not felt it is because the heart is all black, and that might be the cause delay of the Tawbah. After you purify your heart, you might feel sins again and make Tawbah once more.

You want to see how much sins you have then compare yourself with the Quran. How much are you reading the Quran? Sins and Quran do not mix. If you are not reading a lot of quran, that means you have a lot of sins. Your memory and knowledge will decrease with sins.

Read the Quran and keep consistency in your prayers and inshaAllah your heart will be cleansed.

5 condition of Tawbah:
1. Leave the sin
2. Regretful
3. Seek forgiveness /pay back the madhloom
4. Repent before death and before the sun rises from the west.

Magnetic change. Polar mag field changes, and it can change anytime.

Some scholars say the first thing that happens is the sun rising from the west.

Quest for Certainty, pt1: "Ghazallian Doubt"

BismiAllahi AlRahman AlRaheem



On the quest to attaining certainty (Yaqin) of my beliefs: The belief of One Allah, the messenger, the Angels, the Books, Qadar wa Qada2, and the Day of Judgement.

There are degrees of certainty: in the terminology of the Quran, these are

`ilm al-yaqin (science of certainty),

`ayn al-yaqin (vision of certainty) and

haqq al yaqin (truth of certainty).

Knowledge of Certainty (Ilm el-Yaqin): Knowledge which is completely free from any error or doubt, and with which the heart finds complete satisfaction



Doubt, the very evil within one's heart (soul). I want to disect and analyze the nature, function and spirit of doubt within the faith of islam. I must go back in time and reflect upon the past scholars and their achievement over this disease, such as Imam Al-Ghazali and what was later called "Ghazzalian doubt".



Ghazzalian doubt: consisted of two parts: Taqlid and Sect doubts. Following a ruling blindly is the very essence of non-certainty, although, he believed, some knowledge should be accepted since we are mere less than knowledgable to distinquish faith rulings, True IMAN. Moreover, the 70 or so sects that the Prophet warned us about served as another sense of doubt to Ghazali, since each sect believes that its "madh'hab" or "group" is the ONE that's saved.



"Men are asleep: then after they die they awake"

"In ones act of faith one participates in the truth through both reason and heart, faith already implies a particular level of knowledge and of certainty. Thus, from the beginning of al-Ghazzalis quest for the true knowledge of the Real, a certain element of certitude 'the removal of deformations of the soul such as pride, passional attachment to the world and a host of other reprehensible habits and vicious qualities, all of which stand as obstacles to the realization of that knowledge, in order to attain a heart empty of all save God and adorned with the constant remembrance of Godwas always present."

...Before him now lies the most important decision he has to make in his life.

For about six months he incessantly vacillated between the contending pull of worldly desires and the appeals of the afterlife....The intellectual and spiritual tradition in which al-Ghazali lived and thought made him fully aware of the fact that what veils man from this highest reality is the darkness of his own soul. Therefore in turning to his own inner being, al-Ghazzali was merely following that traditional path which alone could guarantee, by divine grace, the removal of that veil. This is the universal path of all the real seekers of the Truth, of which al-Ghazzali was an outstanding example.

Sailing through the seas...

BismiAllahi AlRahman AlRaheem

Sing the song you used to sing to me
With the words that depleted my worry
The song that stole my soul from me
And took it far away in a long journey

Speak the words you used to shout at me
With the tone that used to revive my sanity
The words that made my heart beat uneasy
And snatched it from my chest ever so gently

Believe the dreams you used to dream with me
Defeating everyone’s beliefs and lets make history
Letting go of yesterday’s miseries and become mystery
hand in hand, “sailing through the sea”…

"You And I Both"

-JM

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me

Oh things are gonna happen naturally

Oh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side

And balancing the whole thing

But often times those words get tangled up in lines

And the bright lights turn to night

Until the dawn it brings

Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved

What you and I spoke of

And others just read of

Others only read of the love, the love that I love.

See I'm all about them words

Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words

Hundreds of pages, pages, pages for words

More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive.

Cause you and I both loved

What you and I spoke of

And others just read of

And if you could see me now,Oh love, no

You and I, you and I

Not so little you and I anymore, mmm...

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And with this silence brings a moral story

More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

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Cause you and I both loved

What you and I spoke of

And others just read of

And if you could see me now

Well I'm almost finally out of

I'm finally out ofFinally deedeedeedee

Well I'm almost finally, finally

Well I'm free, oh, I'm free

And it's okay if you have to go away

Oh just remember the telephone works both ways

And if I never ever hear them ring

If nothing else I'll think the bells inside

Have finally found you someone else and that's okay

Cause I'll remember everything you sang

Cause you and I both loved

what you and I spoke of

and others just read of and if you could see now

well I'm almost finally out of.

I'm finally out of, finally, deedeeededede

well I'm almost finally, finally, out of words.

Wake me up in a year’s end

BismiAllahi AlRahman AlRaheem

It is time to close the eyes into the serene dream:
Speak your inner voice and clarify your intentions,
Foster all the aspirations in between your palms,
And call out to the One who will respond…
Firm the heart, the soul, and body to withstand
The test and the trials of the weak heart…
Before long, the eyes will see the dream standing before thee…
So wake me up in a year’s end…

Long and behold, tis 3 AM…A year has passed when it all began
the eyes awoke from the dream and faces the inconceivable reality
It is the night before when our hands will meet
When the veil is uplifted, and faces the eyes that awaited…
When the two doves are released on a journey high into the heavens…

It's a funny story:

BismiAllahi AlRahman AlRaheem

Beat after beat, overstepping the boundaries I once created;
Oh my heart, are you aware to which direction you are being lead?

Forcing the mouth to not speak, but the soul is screaming the sounds
Through words that are beyond my comprehension and without bounds

The hours are passed folded in a corner, body curved and retrieved
Witness the state of my exasperation and the want to be relieved

I feared when I let my shell crumble and let it all in plain sight
And I feared the way I was brought back alive and instilled with might

I feared when I will propose my dreams …and maybe let out a fart!
And I feared to give in and serve my scarred heart!

The shadow came hollow, waiting for me to instill it
Amazing how my dreams and I formed a perfect fit!

Everything became useless…words became meaningless,
Time stopping every hour to give us a break to let out the sighs

It’s a funny story:
Kites, flying randomly with the wind, attached by a pair of strings
Guided by the One above, tangled up in the seventh heaven forming a pair of wings

....3 days!

BismiAllahi AlRahman AlRaheem

I am storing every tear that flows from the wells of my heart. I was blind to what I am becoming, I was deaf to what I’m hearing, and I was mute to what I’m speaking; It is all new to me but I’m letting go and flying. How do simple words could fire you up inside and melt you like a candle wax, but the candle keeps burning luminous light when the sun exhausts and falls behind the horizon.

Knowing that all this time I was shackled in an illusion and finally I’m released to a reality beyond my comprehension: where everything starts to unfold and finally makes sense. You look back to what made you and you realize that everything happens for a reason, not a hair falls in the middle of darkness that Allah Al-mighty didn’t not design to be with a purpose.

I look back at my footsteps and realize that every fitnah that befell me was a preparation, it was to make me stronger and withstand the upcoming destination. With every Dua that was made molded the destiny of our two paths to meet. For that, I cannot comprehend the generosity and compassion of Allah! For it let a soul fly into my path fully unexpected, fully completed….guarded by two angels, sent from heaven, packaged into exactly what I needed…

I feel terrible. To the extreme that I feel like I need to bow down in prostration until days end and ask for forgiveness for all those days when I got frustrated at Allah to send me someone that perfects my soul and fits perfectly into one body. I want to ask for forgiveness when I be-littered your powers and cried thinking loneliness was my fate and harmony. How am I deservant of such soul you had sent from heaven to me? How after all that I’ve done. Could it be possible that you’ve done this to show that with You, ya Allah, lies all the power, and to you we belong? I believe in you and your destiny…

How beautiful it is when we let Allah design and destines, for he Perfects! But I will be patient. Patience we lacked when we got frustrated, but now we truly know the altitude of Allah’s powers. Prayers, Duas, inner strength, Iman fuel, love and compassion needs to be fostered…to imagine this whole time Allah took us for a rollercoaster ride called life just to get us ready….I knew…I KNEW that Allah was waiting for the best time to bring such souls to meet! I knew that Ithought I was ready, but I knew that Allah knows best…

For Allah never overburdens a soul with what it can’t handle! Sub7anaAllah..

Everything takes three days:
It takes three days to forgive,
It takes three days to forget,
and it takes three days to untangle your heart from its fears!
But to Allah, it takes less then second, Be and it shall Be!

I will be storing every tear that flows from the wells of my heart. So mold me into what u desire me to be. Just put wings on me so I can fly freely with only you by my side in harmony…